For the past couple of weeks, I have been feeling extremely overwhelmed. How about you? It is easy to get wrapped up in a million things in hopes of providing for our families and being able to do what God calls us to do. I was struggling with the idea that I want to be involved in ministry, but it feels like I have way too much on my plate. Then when I feel burnt out, I feel like a failure. That I just can’t handle it like everyone else. I have been asking God about how I can handle the day to day and still be a Christian. Most of the time I want to veg out or have the feeling I might snap, and hurt someone, needlessly.
So while I have been asking Him about this, He has been impressing me to ask Him for help. Since He has been helping me through my anxiety, I figured, why not ask Him to help me with my other weakness? I have been feeling all the human things. Spent. Foggy brain. Ready to quit. Not adequate enough. Flustered. You name it. I started to wonder if God was giving me strength to conquer my burn out and give me a fresh mind. Then a couple of days ago it hit me….
Every once in a while over the past couple of weeks I have done random, out of my way, things. And not just do them, I have done it with an almost skip in my step and joy on my face. What? How did I even notice the needs to begin with? Sometimes this would happen while in the back of my mind I was thinking, “I don’t have time for this! Why am I doing it?” I would then ask, “What is happening to me?”
Then it would hit me. While I was bent out of shape and ready to hand in the towel, God was striking me with His power every so often, allowing me to reach out to others. Even when I think I am weak, He shines through me and gives someone a little break. The very thing that I feel I need, He is giving to others through me!
At first glance, it might make you think, “oh well that isn’t fair!” But strangely I am encouraged instead. It gives me peace! Just knowing that God is able to use me despite my inadequacies is encouraging. Even when I feel that I might fail, God doesn’t. Even when I don’t think I can do it, He does it. God is teaching me that to fully become like Him I need to let Him work through me. He is also letting me know that with His power, being selfless can give me energy. I am an introvert naturally and need down time. But somehow He gives me just the right amount of boost to pick up and get the job done!
Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ’s sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong. – 2 Corinthians 12:10
So don’t doubt that God can use you. Believe that He can make His mark on anyone’s heart through your humanness. If He can give an introvert energy, in the middle of chaos, He most certainly can do it for you!
Here is a song that makes me think of how good God has been, despite our struggles! I cannot get enough of how GOOD He is! He is never going to let us down.